It usually happens at night; right before I sleep, if I sleep. You know what I mean, right? The rush of thoughts. Sometimes, I can’t keep up with myself. I think so much, that I don’t know what to do. I over-think the situation so much that I scare myself. I lay in bed, stare at the wall, and my thoughts run wild. I think about everything and anything. But what I hate is, I can’t control what goes into my mind. I can’t help it.
One where we don’t have to worry about flirting, or falling for each other. None of that. I want a guy friend who I can have legit conversations with. One who’s going to be there for me when I need him, laugh at my lame jokes, hangout with me without having to worry about “growing feelings”. Is that even possible? I just wish there was someone of the opposite sex who’d be willing to have a long lasting friendship with me.
A relationship is never 50/50. Even though it should be, it really never is. There’s always that one person that gives a little more, cares a little more, loves a little more, & in the end, gets hurt way more than the other. It sucks, it’s not fair, but in the end, you can thank that person for breaking your heart because you’ll find someone worth every ounce of your love.